Choices, choices everywhere.
The burden of decision weighs heavily on my mind. Which one is the "right" decision? I dislike the plaguing purgatory of the unknown.
I want decisions to be made, not drag on and on like a baseball game.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the process of brainstorming, but at some point I desire action.
I crave closure so our family can invest, move into a community and begin living life in reality, not merely in our mind palaces.
What We're Doing
Our family recently moved from the "process stage" to action and I couldn't be more thrilled!
We set out from the Midwest driving off into the wild wild west towing our travel trailer and our dreams. Our search for adventurous experiences in nature with our family began with a few hurdles but that's adventure: unknown risks.
How Adventure Works
Adventure only works when I let go of control.
Planning is not the archenemy of adventure, but it can be if my heart's posture insists on my way, my timing and my ideas.
Adventure stretches me, binds me to others through shared experiences and being vulnerable. It offers me the chance to persevere and to be joyful in the midst of uncertainty.
We have embraced the concept of "unknown risks" and "living by faith, not my sight." And so far, we've seen incredible provision and kindness.
So What Does Adventure Look Like When I'm Not Going Anywhere?
Adventure doesn't mean I don't plan. It means I hold the plans loosely, because I know deep down that it will most likely change.
There have been times when I woke up everyday and played with my kids, cleaned the house, met my neighbors and fought to notice every smile wrinkle and document the moment. I sacrificed my idea of adventure to say "yes" over and over to the seemingly mundane life.
And in those moments, I was stretched.
My sacrifice of control looked like letting go of dreams to travel the world.
I remember standing in my kitchen, washing dishes, my bad attitude cresting and it occurred to me...this is a moment I don't want to waste. Instead of pining away for a different life out of the country or some exotic experience I would bask in the joy of the moment.
Cultivating Living in the Moment
Living in the moment doesn't come naturally for me. It's cultivated.
I'm still working the soil of my heart, tilling in the values of joy and peace so I can stand back and enjoy those around me instead of jumping too far ahead on the timeline.
So today, as I look ahead and see a whole world of opportunity opening up in ways I couldn't have predicted...I have to pause.
I must choose to slow down, look around and absorb all the facial expressions, the scents and sounds of laughter. My kitchen sink was used to teach me to be comfortable with silence and contemplation.
And now that plans are in motion toward the unknown risks I'd always longed for, we are choosing to live by faith and not by sight.
It still may not turn out like I "planned."
Turns out that the wild wild West isn't so wild after all; it's full of human beings in as much need of love as anywhere else. And we're here, ready to love, live our lives and bless those we encounter.
Even in the midst of travel, I must fight for the same moments as before. Moments upon moments weave together to design a life. I now realize something profound:
My life is always an adventure because I never truly know what's coming
How do you view the word adventure in your life?
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